Friday, January 15, 2010

Twenty 10

I know I am 15 days late....but...Happy 2010!!!!

I'm gonna say 2009 wasn't really a good year for me....
I spent my last holiday at Bali with 4 best friends and everything went downhill after that....

I am not going to write what happened because it will sure stir up shits again...
Whatever it is...it's over.....

I just need to pour out my feeling......saying I am trying to gain sympathy? go ahead....

I still remember the pain I had for that few nights...unable to sleep, crying my eyes out...not able to concentrate at work, running to the toilet to dry my eyes whenever I think abt it, the feeling was really horrible...I just felt that I don't deserve what I had gone through....

Kris has been staying with me, consoling me...whenever I cry, he would not say a thing, he just sit by my side, helping me to dry my eyes...

I am a girl with feeling, with emotion, so this is the way I feel, I felt lost all of a sudden at that point of time...losing 5 friends is no joke...but since it's the best way...everyone just got to move on....

I am glad I still have my colleagues, a bunch of lovely girls, to make me forget the nightmares...
and also Jo and Reena for listening to my ah ma stories..."The People" for always making the outing so fun and with so much laughter...and most importantly, Kris.

If not because of this, our r/s will not be as strong as today. I realized this incident really makes me realize who your true friends are and who will be there for you no matter what shits happen....not forgetting my sisters, for giving me so many advices...and consoling words...

I've gotten over it and my life is good again...I'm no longer sad but once a while, I still dream abt them...which sends me the chill because everything seems so real....

Anyway, hope 2010 will be a better year for me!!!!!!

Once again, my resolutions.........
1. cut off 5 kg of fats from my body (I know I have been saying this HAHA)
2. save more money
3. to have a baby (WAHAHAHAHAHA! I'm kidding!)

See! I have not much resolutions because I don't really fulfill it but maybe for the 1st one..YES I HAVE TO DO IT!